Its been a really hard summer...like i dont even know. My fams onto me and my shrink knows too....i have to be skinny idc!!!!
HELP

finally i see 95.5lbs on the scale!!!!!
<3

  I cant stop crying...i cant... I fucking hate bitches and THEY HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHO I AM...i dont judge...they fuckin do...maybe one day they will learn that. Im a really nice person and a really good support. They are the ones missing out on a really great gurl.  I have my support. I dont need stupid fucking bitches. I know im better off than they are...i know this for a damn fact. You can go to hell and you know who you fucking are.  I feel sorry for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im 98.5. ...!!!

  So my face met the concrete this morning...i broke my front tooth in half...skinned my upper lip, bruised and skinned my chin (cant move my lower jaw), knee, and hand.  I got a fake tooth...and its only temperary so i cant bite into anything really...ive been doin really well the past 3 days...barely eating at all....i Hate this bc it hurts SOOO much, but i cant really eat so yay!

100. 5 today

 1. If you aren't thin you aren't attractive.


2. Being thin is more important than being healthy.


3. You must buy small clothes, cut your hair, take diet pills, starve yourself, do anything to make yourself look thinner.


4. Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.


5. Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwards.


6. Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.


7. What the scale says is the most important thing.


8. Losing weight is good / gaining weight is bad.


9. You can never be too thin.


10. Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success.









01. You will be FAT if you eat today, just put it off one more day.


02. You don't NEED food.


03. Fat people can't fit everywhere.


04. Guys will be able to pick you up without struggling.


05. You'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight holding you back.


06. People will remember you as "the beautiful thin one".


07. If someone has to describe you, they'll say "oh she weighs like 90, 100 lbs".


08. Guys will want to get to know you, not laugh at you and walk away.


09. Starving is an example of excellent willpower.


10. You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.


11. Bones are clean and pure. Fat is dirty and hangs on your bones like a parasite.


12. If you eat then you'll look like those disgusting, fat, ghetto and trailer-trash hookers on Jerry Springer.


13. The models that everyone claims are beautiful, the spitting image of perfection, are any of them fat? NO!


14. Too many people in the world are obese.


15. People who eat are selfish and unrealistic.


16. Only fat people are attracted to fat people. Do you want pigs to like you because you are one of them.


17. Anyone can have "inner beauty" but few can earn real beauty, inside as well as out.


18. You'll be able to move as quietly and skillfully as a spider.


19. Only thin people are graceful.


20. If you slap a fat person you can see a shockwave ripple over their skin. That's disgusting.


21. Do you want people to say "for gods sake get off me you're crushing me!!!" or "you are sooo light" ???


22. Underweight aka perfect body.


23. Ballerina? or beanbag?


24. I want to be light enough so a helium balloon could lift me and carry me to the clouds.


25. I want to walk in the snow and leave no footprints.


26. Starve off the parts you don't need. They're ugly and they drag you down.


27. Nothing cant be fixed with hunger and weight loss.


28. Saying "no thanks" to food is saying "yes please" to THIN!!!


29. Fat people are so huge, yet people look away from them as if they don't exist.


30. The only time people do notice a fat person is when they get in the way of that beautiful thin girl walking by (ok that sounds really horrible i know.)


31. Have you ever seen a person NOT notice a walking skeleton.


32. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.


33. Is food more important that happiness in life? I think not!


34. Eating is conforming to everyone else's expectations.


35. When you start to get dizzy and weak you're almost there.


36. Hunger is your friend and it won't betray you like food.


37. Food is mean and sneaky. It tricks you into eating it and it works on you from the inside out making you fat, bloated, ugly and unhappy.


38. Think of anorexia as your secret weapon.


39. If you can name one reason to be fat, I'll name a million and one to be thin.


40. Thin people look good in ANY kind of clothes.


41. Food rots your teeth.


42. Puffy cheeks, double chins and thick ankles-- aren't attractive.


43. Fatty areas stretch and sag as you get older.


44. Ever seen the arms of a fat person wave hello or goodbye?


45. Eating little to nothing saves you money!


46. The average (middle class) American wastes OVER $8,000 a year on FOOD ALONE...it goes in one end and out the other. That sure is a lot of fat! No wonder so many Americans are obese and overweight!


47. Fat people make their country look bad.


48. Big people sweat more and they smell bad.


49. Fat people die earlier.


50. You'll be the envy of all the other girls.


51. All of the guys will want you.


52. You're less likely to get food poisoning.


53. You won't be exposed to all the chemicals and pesticides they put in food today.


54. You won't get sweaty on hot days.


55. The word fat will only apply to you in a sarcastic way.


56. No one wants to see a fat person dance.


57. Beauty Queen? or Dairy Queen?

  so...thanksgiving is suposed to make u fat...im at 101.5 with a big shirt and pj pants on...haha but im a have to eat in the car on the way back to school...damn...ill fix it when i get there tho!!! son of a bitch lol...but anyways YAY...

 so i guess i take after mommy dearest....
i just found lax and diet pills in my moms bathroom...dang dude....anywho i stole the rest of the lax and some diet pills...yay...free...i guess home wont be that bad then...yay!!  I dunno tho...kinda sad to me...im not old my mother is...oh well...i kinda suspected it.

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